The year 2020 has been a roller coaster ride for me. The Covid-19 pandemic has forced me to a home quarantine for several months, which was a drastic adjustment as I was used to going out everyday. I was sad on the first few days, but I focused on working out and practicing my flute again. Eventually, I got used to home life with my mom and our helper.
The lockdown has taught me to be thankful everyday. I realized that life is too short, and with the world on a standstill, I noticed that the past does not matter anymore. Only the present matters, because the future is not promised to us. I decided to make use of my time at home wisely by crocheting earsavers for health care frontliners under the organization Earsavers for Lifesavers. I grew my hair, which was in a pixie cut for years. I practiced my own kind of self-care, by reading books, listening to music, subscribing to podcasts, praying, and participating in webinars and virtual parties. Life became colorful again, thanks to the online events I had.
I also switched from drinking instant coffee to brewing my own coffee at home. I bought a French press, and found a local coffee distributor who delivered choice selections from Sagada and Kalinga. This may seem like a small change, but the results have cascaded into the other aspects of my life. I learned to wait for my coffee to brew, rather than just drinking my coffee straightaway. I appreciated the aroma of strong coffee, and realized that black is better than sugary concoctions in sachets. I learned to take things slow. And I became more awake in the process.
With all the negative news and energy in the world during the pandemic, I realized that my life is the only thing that is mostly within my control. This led me to being more selective with the guys I was entertaining. I decided to stop wasting my time on men who ghost and have shady intentions. Probably the biggest quarantine plot twist was meeting my boyfriend, who was an upperclassman of mine in university. Reconnecting online was a blessing as it made the quarantine so much better. Finding love also made me appreciate how I am as a person. I have so much love to share because I already feel confident in my own skin. Indeed, when I was at home, I got to focus on my truest self, and this led me to really enjoy being in a relationship.
Dating during the lockdown does have its challenges, as most restaurants only allow takeout. This did not stop us from having coffee in the car or just seeing each other once a week. The pandemic made us appreciate the time that we spent together, as this also made us get to know each other better. My favorite moments are when we talk on just about anything while driving around the city.
The Blessed Mother has been my intercessor all throughout the pandemic. I asked her to help me get though each day, and I got so much more than that. I learned how to manage my expectations, emotions, priorities, and to let go of past hurts through my daily rosary. As a result, I became braver to face the future because I know that the present is the best gift I can give myself.
I will look back on the pandemic with affection as this period in my life taught me how to be a lifelong learner with a prayerful and loving heart. With Our Lady’s help, I know that God will continue to help me thrive in an imperfect and unpredictable world.
Sam Lucas graduated with a degree in Humanities from the University of Asia and the Pacific. She is a Human Nature online dealer and Core Advocate. When she was 14, her vision was restored to 20/20 after a trip to Lourdes, France. Her fibromyalgia was also healed after this trip. She has a lifelong devotion to Our Lady.