I have had a busy day so far. I commenced my Friday with a workout video then had a power breakfast of pandesal, peanut butter, banana, and coffee. I then proceeded to my old office for my third and final shot of dengue vaccine. It was bittersweet to return to my former workplace. I had to resign after half a decade due to change in ownership. It was difficult for me to move on at that time, but I eventually did. After my shot, I had my legs waxed. I gave the waxing technician my change as tip. It was difficult for me to give her the tip because the change was already equivalent to my Zumba entrance fee for a morning workout. As I am unemployed, it is hard to make ends meet. I realized though that she needs the tip more than I do. The anxiety that goes with unemployment is eating me up from time to time, but I am not allowing it to consume me. For instance, Scribe Writing Essentials sent me an SMS that the Traveler's Notebook Olive Edition is already on its way. I remember reserving one when I was still employed, so I dropped by their branch to inquire and view the item. Upon reaching the store, I was told that I had to pay for the item and wait for it to arrive in-store on the 16th. I told the lady that I had no money, and it was with a heavy heart that I let go of my reservation.
Being broke is a sad reality, but I choose to be unbroken. If I will let this consume me, I will be more frustrated and sad. I want to have a job soon, but for now, I must find happiness in the ordinary. It is a struggle to let go of my everyday anxiety, but I know I will get through this. For now, I will just breathe and let God help me.