Sundayness

There's something about Sundays that make me reflective and thankful. I realized this while driving to breakfast. I was craving for a chicken fillet ala king breakfast meal with large coffee, so I drove to McDonald's. The sun was shining, the sky was insanely blue, and Katipunan was free of its signature traffic jam. It was a gorgeous morning.  

I was eating my meal when this beautiful Golden Retriever appeared with his owners. He was smiling the whole time and he charmed me while I was enjoying my breakfast. His owners packed his treats and made sure he was hydrated while they were eating. The doggo looked joyfully at peace with himself. Whereas here I am, worrying about my joblessness and lack of resources. I realized that it is a lovely day and I am still able to workout, eat breakfast, and read books. I am blessed beyond what I can comprehend and I am certain that there is an opportunity for me out there. I still have yet to seize it.  

For now, I'll take from this doggo's cue. Be cute and stay hydrated. Because life is too beautiful not to be enjoyed. 

Communicating with Guys

I am in a stable relationship with A. We have worked out our issues through counseling and we have discovered that building our life together is not a one-time deal. It is a journey that constantly needs care, attention, and mutual respect. While we are not married yet, we are both improving ourselves. I am fond of reading books that resonate with me, either through self-help or inspiration. These books provide the perfect balance to my fictional novels which make my life interesting and colorful.

Last week, I bought this affordable book at Nationals Bookstore. I was browsing through it when I realized that it is the ideal book for me. I am not daydreaming that A should marry me right this moment. Rather, I know that like any working relationship, we need to communicate effectively with each other if we want to grow and mature together.  

I have just finished reading it and it is a goldmine of wisdom for any woman who is in a relationship. I now understand why A tells me that I am a nagger. I believed that I was only asking him to do something, but thanks to this book, I have learned that it is the approach that makes men think that a woman is nagging. Once a man thinks that a woman is nagging or forcing him, he shuts down. In the same manner that when a man makes insulting comments to a woman, she also shuts down. There were many points of interest in this book, and I highly recommend it. It is an easy read and it is a wise investment for your relationship. I guarantee you that it will strengthen your bond and improve how you and your partner communicate with each other. 

Happy Birthday Mama Mary!

Today is Mama Mary's birthday. I think attending the book launch of a Marian anthology is a fitting tribute to one of my favorite intercessors. I was invited by my boyfriend A to this event. He was a Reuter Baby and he badly wanted to be in this book launch, but he has work. So I gladly took the invite and represented him in this esteemed event. I purchased a couple of copies for us both. They were signed by the authors, who were also Reuter Babies like him. There was a snack buffet and awesome coffee from Commune, which is one of my favorite third wave cafes. The launch renewed my faith in God and in Mama Mary's intercession. The book features testimonies from the faithful, and they were done with Fr. Reuter in mind. It is truly amazing how the late Fr. Reuter can still inspire his followers even beyond his death. It is also noteworthy to add that this is already the fifth book in his collection. It is also a meaningful way to promote Marian devotion especially to those who were not able to meet Fr. Reuter when he was still alive. 

I feel fortunate to have attended this event and it has indeed reinforced my faith which was recently challenged by factors beyond my control. I look forward to reading this book and to even submit my testimony to the authors someday! 

Broke but Unbroken

I have had a busy day so far. I commenced my Friday with a workout video then had a power breakfast of pandesal, peanut butter, banana, and coffee. I then proceeded to my old office for my third and final shot of dengue vaccine. It was bittersweet to return to my former workplace. I had to resign after half a decade due to change in ownership. It was difficult for me to move on at that time, but I eventually did. After my shot, I had my legs waxed. I gave the waxing technician my change as tip. It was difficult for me to give her the tip because the change was already equivalent to my Zumba entrance fee for a morning workout. As I am unemployed, it is hard to make ends meet. I realized though that she needs the tip more than I do. The anxiety that goes with unemployment is eating me up from time to time, but I am not allowing it to consume me. For instance, Scribe Writing Essentials sent me an SMS that the Traveler's Notebook Olive Edition is already on its way. I remember reserving one when I was still employed, so I dropped by their branch to inquire and view the item. Upon reaching the store, I was told that I had to pay for the item and wait for it to arrive in-store on the 16th. I told the lady that I had no money, and it was with a heavy heart that I let go of my reservation. 

Being broke is a sad reality, but I choose to be unbroken. If I will let this consume me, I will be more frustrated and sad. I want to have a job soon, but for now, I must find happiness in the ordinary. It is a struggle to let go of my everyday anxiety, but I know I will get through this. For now, I will just breathe and let God help me.  

Longganisa Detour

This morning was quite eventful. I did not workout at the park due to a massive vehicular accident which caused terrible traffic along main thoroughfares in Quezon City. It was already too late for me to go to my Zumba class, so I just proceeded to have a hearty meal at Breakfast Bin. I always order their toasted naked longganisa with brown rice and scrambled egg. Of course, I pair my food with brewed coffee and a book. It was a welcome respite from the traffic jam and consistent honking of horns this morning. I enjoyed just reading and unwinding with my food, my coffee, and my solitude. Dining there on weekends can be impossible, as it only has three tables inside. The weekday dining experience made me believe that detours in life are not supposed to be regretted, because they may be the breaks that we never knew we needed. It has been a while since my last proper breakfast, as I have been living on fast food these past few weeks. Having no work means being broke, so my proper meals are only possible when my family or A shoulders the bill. Nevertheless, I am not the type to rely on such privileges. If they happen, then I am thankful. If not, then I can make the most out of what I have. A detour every now and then though can be good for the soul. If done in moderation, it can even inspire me to seek things bigger than myself and cross boundaries beyond my limits. 

Narrative

The past few months have been challenging for me. I had to resign from my previous job due to circumstances beyond my control. I was unprepared for unemployment, so I had to budget what little savings I had left. While I still live with my parents, I have to spend my own money for my workouts, basic necessities, meals, and books. It was not easy, but I am still thriving after a month and a half of having no work. Having gone through this experience has allowed me to appreciate the simplest things, such as a fast food breakfast and the occasional lunch treat from my family and A. While other people may think that having no work (yet) is a disadvantage for me, I am making a choice now to own my narrative and transform this period from one of uncertainty to that of personal improvement. While I am waiting for my next job, I am reading books, exercising daily, and eating healthy meals. Life will not stop for me, so I would rather own this story so I will keep on going. There are plenty of ways to enjoy life. For now, allow me to make the best out of my unemployment so I can be a better employee when I get hired soon.  

Offering

I often visit the St. Clare Monastery because I like the ritual of offering a tangible gift to an intercessor. The monastery is located at Katipunan, making it easily accessible whether I am driving or commuting. Prayer is an important part of my fitness journey because I envision my health goals in front of an altar. I also pray for my special intentions, such as landing a good job soon and for blessings for me and A. I like how it is integrated in my schedule, because I consider prayer to be a lifestyle rather than a chore. It is essential to include it in my plans if I want my intentions to be granted or given special consideration. Whenever I am at St. Clare, I map out my vision, my goals, and how I plan to realize them. For my relationship with A, I think of stability and his success in his career. For my health, I see myself without suffering and still in good shape. It is design thinking in process, and the only difference is the ritual of doing so in front of an altar. By offering myself, I give a part of my being to further my intentions. By living a life of prayer, I am renewing my faith. And when I lift up everything to God, I find myself trusting in Him wholeheartedly. 

Coffee Nature

I am currently having coffee at Human Nature, my favorite affordable natural store. I am here at the beginning of each month, as I have to restock on toiletries that are kind to my skin. Their advocacy speaks to me, because I support social enterprises and I believe that they are the key to a progressive economic future for our country. While I am having their free-flowing brewed coffee here, I am reflecting on how long I have been supporting Human Nature. I have been a loyal customer since 2010, but I have been a member since 2013. In my close to four years with them, I have witnessed their beautiful advocacy firsthand through immersions at the GK Enchanted Farm, my training and qualification as a Core Advocate, and my two weekends as a camper in the GK Startup Social Business Camp. I admire how they are able to impart to their stakeholders the power of "walang iwanan" (no man left behind). They do not fire their staff, and everyone is given living wages above minimum standards. Best of all, everything is Made in the Philippines, and they provide jobs to those who need them most. As a customer, I feel happy to support such a worthy cause and I look forward to witnessing more milestones for the brand. I am glad that their products care for my skin, hair, and body. They also awaken the Filipino in me to be proud of what can be achieved when we all work together. For now, I am finishing my coffee and I am excited for my next shopping trip here soon.

Carrying On

There are days when I just want to give up. This morning, I was feeling moody. I was not excited for my workout and I wanted to go back to dream land. However, I remembered the endorphin rush that I experience after exercising. That motivated me enough to push and proceed with my agenda: to burn calories and dance, dance, dance!

My secret to a good workout is to channel all your energy to your routine. Do not quit! If you feel tired, drink water or just slow down your pace. You may also talk to your instructor or trainer about some concerns (my urgent concern when working out is my scoliosis). That way, he could modify the routine or circuit for you and make your routine more enjoyable and bearable.  

Workouts feel fulfilling when I am able to execute the steps with ease. Doable steps should be balanced with challenging myself. In that case, I add a barre workout video when I get home. It keeps me on my toes and challenges my core. It also makes me toned. There are plenty of free barre videos online. My favorite YouTube personality for barre fitness is Jessica Smith. Go visit her channel and try her 12-minute barre workout video to jumpstart your routine. 

My advice for those who do not feel like continuing their workouts is to begin with a routine that you like. Think of the endorphin rush that you will get afterwards. And lastly, just show up! You will always feel better after burning calories and bad vibes.  

Craftsmithery

I am currently at Craftsmith Living, a secret cafe / home store hidden in a condominium in Makati. It is bustling with the mundane activity of a cafe which serves third wave brew. It is also full of miscellany in neutral colors and millennial pink. I am in awe of the different photos taped on the walls, the plants strewn around, and the poetry books scattered all over the place. It is the perfect setting for my blogging workshop this morning. I am excited to meet Martine De Luna of Make It Blissful, and I cannot wait to learn the tricks of the trade. I am sure that I will learn more about living the craft as I absorb the beauty that surrounds me this morning.  

Holiday Fitness

I had to fight the urge to press the snooze button this morning. I slept late last night reading on the Romanov sisters (I am fascinated by their lost lives), so I felt sluggish at 5:00 AM. I had to drag myself to prepare for my workout. I drove to the park and began my routine. It was easier said than done, especially when my mind was still in my book. I then worked it on the dance floor, until I got the hang of it. An hour and a half flew by and before I knew it, my workout was done.

I was happy that my willpower has won over my laziness today. Deciding to workout on a drizzling holiday morning was not an easy choice, but it was the healthier option as opposed to sleeping in. Whenever I feel like pressing the snooze button, I contemplate on the regret I will later feel. It is enough for me to seize the morning and sweat it out. After all, there is nothing like dancing like nobody's watching to jumpstart my holiday. 

Curry Cure

Lately, I have been feeling discouraged because I am still unemployed. I am looking for work in Ortigas or Quezon City, with normal office hours (dayshift), and fixed weekends and holidays off. As I mentioned in a previous post, my savings are already running low. I am currently relying on support from family, like today's kimchi curry lunch at Coco Ichibanya. I realized that even if I am uneasy about my current circumstances, I am still fortunate to have loved ones who feed me. I am lucky to have enough for workouts and necessities. I am also glad that my lifelong love for reading has kept me entertained for so little. I felt cured from the sadness I sometimes feel from being unemployed. Really, sometimes, a great meal is the answer to life's difficult circumstances. 

Ten Years with World Vision

I received this card in the mail today. I was reminded of my decision to sponsor a child back in 2007, when I was still finishing my junior year in college. I used my allowance to send monthly fees and back then, they still relied on faxed deposit slips to confirm my payment. Now, I send the payment from my salary (or savings, as is the case with my current unemployment) and email for confirmation. A lot has changed since the past decade, but my commitment to my sponsored child remains the same. Sharing my blessings to further the education of one little girl has given me a sense of responsibility. It dignifies my work since there is the spirit of advocacy which is priceless. On a personal level, I am determined to look for a good job now so I can keep on supporting my girl and uphold the values imparted to me by World Vision. It is my prayer that I will be blessed with a job soon and I look forward to supporting this worthy organization for many years to come.

Angel Food

I am currently having angel hair puttanesca wth San Mig Light. It reminds me of my carefree university days when I would have beer with almost all my meals. It was a great time to reminisce, but I would rather focus on the present. These days, I am praying for my jobhunting while enjoying life. It may not be my ideal way to enjoy 2017 but I am grateful that I am able to read books, workout, and enjoy the company of my family, friends, and of course, my A. Here's hoping that I will get a good job very soon so I can buy more books and eat my heart out while maintaining my figure through fitness!

Living A Full Life

I am currently enjoying spinach ravioli on this Monday holiday. I am happy because I am with my family. The ravioli is delicious! It has the right amount of cheese and spinach to make me giddy over a plate of ravioli. I always order this whenever I am in an Italian restaurant. My ultimate favorite pasta dish, gnocchi, is not widely available here in the Philippines so i have to settle with ravioli.  

I realized that I order this because it is easy to eat, as it is technically pasta dumplings. I enjoy life to be full and flavorful, and like my favorite ravioli, I let it satisfy me with simple ingredients yet complex flavors. I live life to the fullest no matter what my circumstances are. It is my hope that I can have more ravioli in the future to fill me up! 

Maruya at Raffles

I am currently eating Php17 maruya (fried banana fritters in pancake form) here at The Raffles Makati, the venue for the Readers and Writers Festival 2017. I am waiting for Abbey Sy to begin her Student of Life Workshop here at the Ballroom Two. I am washing it down with convenience store americano and a lot of optimism. I may not have enough cash to buy all the books I want (I am thriving on ebooks, which are more affordable), but I can afford to have a wonderful time at an event hosted by one of my favorite authors and artists. I may be eating maruya today, but I have no shame in devouring it with gusto in a fancy hotel ballroom. I am excited for the last day of this year's festival. Again, I love being surrounded by fellow bibliophiles. I am definitely inspired by the energy here, and I look forward to next year's festival. 

Reader Happy

I am now here at the Raffles Hotel for the second day of the Readers and Writers Festival 2017. I enjoyed the talks yesterday, and to quote the wise Mina V. Esguerra, #kapitlang! As a reader and writer, I am holding on to the stories in my mind, the passion for words in my heart, and the gravity which plants my feet firmly on the ground. Festivals like this one make me feel alive and renewed. I am happy that there are so many people who are also passionate for the written word. For now, I am going to attend another talk and I am sure I will have more key takeaways to sustain me as I read, write, and dream.  

Training Day

I am currently in the MRT. I am going to attend the Readers and Writers Event at Raffles Hotel. It is not my cup of tea to drive from Quezon City to Makati, so here I am aboard a car with no aircon. In exchange for that, I will be spared from the horrendous traffic along EDSA. My comfort may be compromised, but hey, I am actually seated right now and I get to reach the venue in less than an hour. 

I used to ride the MRT everyday when I was still working. I like riding it every now and then so I will still get used to the commute. I also get to sharpen my survival skills. Commuting in Metro Manila is not easy, but I am determined to rise above the challenges. Hopefully, I will find a steady job soon and I will ride the MRT to a fruitful career. For now, I'm enjoying my trip to an event for bibliophiles.  

Unemployed but Fulfilled

This morning, I woke up feeling grateful for another day. I do miss working, but while I have already accepted that I could not control my circumstances, I am thankful that I have a home, a family, friends, and of course A. I attended my workout feeling renewed and excited to begin a new day. It may seem trivial to most people, but having a daily routine works wonders, especially for unemployed people like me. My workout routine and reading help me stay aware of the world around me and most importantly, of myself. So while waiting for my job, I plan to exercise, keep on reading, and enjoy life!

Ciboptimism

Today, I had solo lunch at high school/college dining staple, Cibo. I had my usual pumpkin soup, farfalle alla genovese, red grape shake, and americano. It was comforting to eat growing-up food while being unemployed and waiting for my next opportunity. I remember being uncertain about the future too as I enjoyed Cibo food before. I was and I am not miserable. I believe that returning to an old favorite renewed my belief in myself and just like my days in uni, I see the world again as full of possibilities, rather than limitations. If you are also undergoing challenges at the moment, I suggest that you return to an old haunt. Who knows, you might also gain a new perspective- or return to your optimistic self.